I'm a mom of four, three boys and one girl. I am a nanna to two little girlies and a human to a lil black cloud dog we call Jake. I am Lds (Mormon) and try to use my faith to find a positive in a negative but I still allow myself the down time to recharge.
I like to help people, encourage them and be a positive influence where I can. Sometimes this makes me sound all idealistic and dreamlike...but that's how I roll.
I had a knee injury a few years ago which didn't heal, after many tests, MRI, x-ray and blood tests I was basically told to lose weight and it'd heal. It didn't. In February 2013 I went to see the nurse at my surgery b/c the pain and swelling was affecting my driving and walking. She was up front with me and suggested it may be arthritis, that it sounded like rheumatoid given the creaking. Two weeks later it was confirmed, osteo and rheumatoid arthritis. Nope, I don't do anything by halves!
Talking it all over with the nurse I was told that further tests would reveal how long I've had both. Further blood tests, with specified culture assessment it was revealed that the injury had most likely caused the osteo and rheumatoid had been with me for over 20 years. This explained many of the symptoms I had, such as periodic fatigue that would often see me 'in trouble' with my family. I had no excuse or answer to why there were times I was just so wiped out. Now it made sense.
I've had my issues accepting this lifelong condition, grieving the life lost and the new one I need to create. I'm trying to improve my self esteem as I go along and battle the life long belief that I'm worth little. I'm grateful that I have arthritis and not some terminal condition so when put like that it's easier to 'work' with.
I don't know what my life holds but I know I'm not giving up, it's not an option to feel sorry for myself and cry woe me at every ache and pain, instead I shall be looking for what I can do during flare ups, the things I can learn, new skills I can try and new ideas that may come along.
I've learnt there is more than one way to live a good life and I'm living proof of that. Now I just want to share whatever I can to support others.
I like to help people, encourage them and be a positive influence where I can. Sometimes this makes me sound all idealistic and dreamlike...but that's how I roll.
I had a knee injury a few years ago which didn't heal, after many tests, MRI, x-ray and blood tests I was basically told to lose weight and it'd heal. It didn't. In February 2013 I went to see the nurse at my surgery b/c the pain and swelling was affecting my driving and walking. She was up front with me and suggested it may be arthritis, that it sounded like rheumatoid given the creaking. Two weeks later it was confirmed, osteo and rheumatoid arthritis. Nope, I don't do anything by halves!
Talking it all over with the nurse I was told that further tests would reveal how long I've had both. Further blood tests, with specified culture assessment it was revealed that the injury had most likely caused the osteo and rheumatoid had been with me for over 20 years. This explained many of the symptoms I had, such as periodic fatigue that would often see me 'in trouble' with my family. I had no excuse or answer to why there were times I was just so wiped out. Now it made sense.
I've had my issues accepting this lifelong condition, grieving the life lost and the new one I need to create. I'm trying to improve my self esteem as I go along and battle the life long belief that I'm worth little. I'm grateful that I have arthritis and not some terminal condition so when put like that it's easier to 'work' with.
I don't know what my life holds but I know I'm not giving up, it's not an option to feel sorry for myself and cry woe me at every ache and pain, instead I shall be looking for what I can do during flare ups, the things I can learn, new skills I can try and new ideas that may come along.
I've learnt there is more than one way to live a good life and I'm living proof of that. Now I just want to share whatever I can to support others.
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